Trust

RonPT9

1.Being born with Meningitis as a baby, forcing my parents to wait on taking me home for weeks…

2.Having GI issues as a kid and having to go to Kings Daughter’s in Norfolk VA on a monthly…

3.Falling behind in reading and gracing the Sylvan learning center in VA too…

4.Introduced to death threats at age 8 due to my dad’s lawsuit against the city and seeing dead chickens and rotting watermelons being thrown in our yard…

5.Knee injury and surgery that left me out of HS school for a quarter of the school year. Even facing racism in the form of one of my teachers who said they “didn’t hear about my injury” and refused to send my work home like all the other teachers did. This individual still refused after another teacher, who lived in my neighborhood, said they would and did indeed come teach me after work.

6.I also lost my job on a Friday, found out Delanie was coming in 8 months on Saturday, and had my parked car totaled on Sunday…

7.Feeling deeply depressed from the shame of choosing divorce when my Catholic upbringing taught me that this was forbidden.

8.Having to leave the #1 morning show in the triangle… even though it was the first place I worked at that felt like “home”

9.Left my job and even better CMG “home” in a major market to go to a smaller market and do something I had never done…

10.Recently, facing death and waking up as a T9 paraplegic and enduring 5 more surgeries…

Finally, an ongoing -2 year- learning lifestyle as an wheelchair bound individual…

While your timeline and situations may differ… I bet the next statement holds true. “I didn’t fully trust in HIM”. At best in these situations I trusted HIM at 90%, holding the 10% to “the way the world works”…

Learning to truly trust God at 100% has been one of my greatest challenges. Then I saw this…

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.”

Proverbs 3:5 NIV

I started thinking… Could it have been the fear of being vulnerable, having to still have at least a finger of control over my life, or that ounce of doubt that says “it’s not going to work out”..?

Reality, that need for a self safety net…is a false inner friend that holds you from HIS blessings. You can not possess all the promises of a God you do not fully trust.

Now I could go through each one of those situations and tell you how it worked out. In short though, even when it looked like it was “not for me”, after years- it actually was, but I needed that pain to move to the right path. It will not happen over night… it takes experience, repetition, challenges, trials, triumphs, fear, and even failure.

Trust has to be given to HIM and grown over time. Lucky for us HE knows just how to grow this trust and look forward to showing us just how trustworthy HE is. Take that first step now and think of what level your on right now. Finish reading this(ending now,lol), close your eyes, and let HIM know you will be working on fully giving HIM that next 5% of trust in all situations…

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